Cape Cod 2018

So I was all set to tell you all about our trip to Cape Cod (and to the City), but I think you all can imagine how much fun it was. Everyday was a new adventure. The Mister really showed me a good time. We did things that he wouldn’t ‘normally’ do, like go for walks on the beach. And pick up seashells. Or get coffee and croissants. We ate some very yummy food. And saw some very beautiful sites. And just had a good time. Just the two of us. But the trip was also a trip of letting go. And finding myself. Or at least starting that journey.  I’ seen some things these past couple of weeks that have me feeling all the feels. In a good way. Over the past couple of weeks, I’ve been able to reconnect with several people in my life and that feels good. It feels so healthy. It feels natural. It’s very refreshing.

You see, these past few weeks I’ve reconnected with a dear friend that I haven’t seen or spoken to in so long. She has been going through her own thing and I didn’t know. It was nice to see her, to catch up, to hug her and tell her I love her. Then I had lunch with an old work colleague. One I haven’t spoken to in so long. It was nice to hear her say that I was doing okay and looked good. That I didn’t make those mistakes I thought I had made. To hear her say how wonderful she thinks I am. It may sound so silly, but it was so uplifting. She also set me on the straight and narrow about finding myself again. And then I got the call that told me I has the job I was hoping to get! As a real Librarian! It feels good to use my degree. To be able to go to work, do a good job, and then leave, come home, and do what I need to do at home. Getting this job has given me the extra boost I needed. And then we left for the Cape. And I made decisions there that would set me on the path I needed to be on.

From now on you will hear about how we went to the City, had dinner with wonderful friends, how we went to Murray’s Cheese Shop and had a cider and cheese pairing class, and now I am so motivated to start making cheese again. About how I sold all three of my hats from my shop to my dear friends and when I told them I didn’t want them to pay for them, they said they wanted to support my business! I mean, how wonderful is that? Someone wants to support me? And not only that, they come bearing gifts as well?!!? How could I forget that I have all these wonderful people in my life? Oh, and I was commissioned to make a hat for a good friend so he could give it as a gift to his lovely girlfriend. I also haven’t mentioned other’s who have done so much for us. Who have been so generous and who are such positive forces too. Wait a minute. What have I been whining and complaining about when all these positive forces has been hitting me over the head?

So I just keep telling myself that I’ve just started my journey. I have a long way to go and I have a lot to learn. I want to take it slow. Make sure I do it right. Learn all the details that I need to learn in order to make positive, healthy changes. Become an expert at the topics that I want to be an expert at. Like making cheese, and soap, and knitting. I want to rediscover that parts of me that I have forgotten. Like that I like jazz and being healthy and being a librarian and being a good friend. So my pledge is to move forward with this new found attitude and do the best I can. I’m taking it one day at a time. And I’m feeling good doing it!